Down the Rabbit Hole
Lately, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed. Like I’m Alice in Wonderland and growing giant way too fast for my self to catch up. Like these growing pains are leaps and bounds and I don’t know what to do with myself. Like my soul is stretching and my body feels awkward housing it.
Down the Rabbit Hole
It’s all down the rabbit hole from here. I don’t know which way is up or down anymore. Nothing makes sense except for the will to keep going, learning, and discovering. Discovering that I have a strong personality, and fierce independence that makes me proud of where I’ve been and how far I’ve come. Discovering that I am happy, despite the overwhelming confusion. Discovering that who I am is enough.
Traveling to Asia and seeing what life has in store for me has been a whirlwind. For a self-proclaimed homebody (and I’ve been keeping to my word here), I have found that I have an adventurous side that loves to travel and discover. I am full of paradoxes, and a traveling homebody is just one of many. I’m off the deep end now. About to leave for a Zen/Buddhist monastery in less than 24 hours. My thirst for travel getting stronger.
I guess what I mean to say is goodbye. I don’t know. I don’t know how else to write without sounding like fluttering butterflies and hearts and wings. I can’t help that I’m a romantic. And that I’m a dreamer with my head in the clouds, and my foot reluctantly planted on the ground. I can’t help that I wish for things like epiphanies and true presence. I have no idea what I’ll get out of my experience in the next four months of asceticism, or what exactly it is that I’m “searching” for, but I come with no expectations.
Here’s to chasing rabbits.
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HAVE FUN! Will be thinking of you during this awesome adventure. Take care
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Enjoy your time away! We’ll miss you.
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Good luck and make the most of it! We’ll be here when you get back.
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Down the Rabbit Hole. Lord I how that feels. Pleased to see you are moving onwards and upwards. Good luck with your life’s path and travels.
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have a wonderful and enlightening time. i hope you’ll come back and share your stories. if not good luck on your journeys
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Have an amazing time! Your posts will be missed while you’re “occupied” but I can’t wait to read all about it once you’re back!
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Aw, good luck
I know you are taking your laptop so hopefully you will have lots of wise words of wisdom and great experiences to share when you get back! I’m excited for you! Stay safe!
I so love this post, in its simplicity and sincerity. I’ll miss your words while you’re gone!
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Sometimes being “down the rabbit hole” is more exciting, riveting, thought-provoking, educational, etc. than life above ground…
Have fun!!!
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We will miss you dreadfully but I seriously cannot wait until you’re back and I can hear all about this amazing journey and experience…
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Awww. Good luck!
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I have the feeling that you’ll be fine. Good luck!
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